Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Just a big fat nasty circle.

What I know after this roller coaster of decisions, is there is no one definition for fate or freewill. Of course there are guidelines everyone sometimes follow, but the definitions we all discover are all different.

What I understand is that life is not all about the answers, but more of the questions. Ever since i was little, the way i thought you acquired knowledge was through answers. and yea, sometimes it is. But you truly grow and learn about yourself through the questions we develop (i know that sounds all like psychobabble but whatever)

What I doubt is the true difference between fate and freewill and even if that matters. They both just seem to be explanations of how things work. Shit happens, and maybe it has to do with your destiny or not. Maybe we all choose exactly what happens. The way I see it is that no matter what you do, the choices we make happen everyday affect everything else.

EXAMPLE: So someone choses to kill my mom, that might be freewill. But what results is that killer's great-grandchild kills himself. Thus because of his actions, someone else's fate was determined.

Strange. But someone who does not believe in destiny could easily say that the first killing could be in result of something someone else did. Hum...

but i'll move on.


What I am still wondering is why after all this time and pondering, am I still just at square one? I feel like I learned a new way of thinking (and questioning). But WHY after all this time is it so easy for me to just dismiss all of it and still ask the essential question, SO WHAT!



Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious - atoning for educatability through delicate beauty

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